I believe motherhood is seasonal. In just almost four short years I have experienced so many emotions as a mother. There are days that I love everthing about being a mom and there are days when I dont think I can stand one more second being a mom. There are days when I feel like giving Brooklynn all the time in the world and there are days I feel like I will scream if I don't get just one second to myself. There are days filled with joy and there are days filled with doubt. There are days full of laughter and there are days of anger. There are days full of giggles and days that are so annoying. There are days when things flow smoothly and days when not even one thing seems to go right, and Brooklynn is only a little girl.
I think back to when I was a teenager and how troubling some of those years were for my mother and I. It seemed to be the same way with my girlfriends and their mothers, as well. We would argue, scream, be ugly, and cry. Through all that.. my mother never left my side. Teenage years are so strange and that is when your body and emotions change the most. When I think back on how my mother and I delt with it, I grow very anxious to think ahead of how Brooklynn and I will deal with it.
Once I had Brooklynn, my mom and I became closer than we ever have in my whole life. She understands me, she helps me, she encourages me, she scolds me, she reminds me, and even when I don't get motherhood right... she loves me. See I think that mother/daughter relationships require much patience. I know there are days my mother wants to pull my hair out and I know there are days when she wishes she could slap some sense into me. There are also days when I want to say "yes mother you have told me that a 50416403056480478 times" and days when I wanna say "let me handle this". It's give and take. It's love and hate. It's laughter and tears. It's confusion and understanding. It's all of those things wrapped up in to one great package.
With all that said, I love my mother very much. I'm thankful that she is still here on this Earth with me and I'm learning more and more not to take that for granted. Being able to celebrate her day of birth even in a small simple way meant the world to me. Baking her birthday cake with Brooklynn was so special because Brooklynn loves her so much. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM, YOU'RE THE BEST AND WE LOVE YOU!
BRW putting on the finishing touches
Two thumbs up, Grandma!!
I wanted to post some pics of the past few years of my mom and and our family. These are some of my greatest memories. Love you, Momma!!
